To reach you

I know,

I could just walk in,  knock at your door

and I would be welcomed warmly.

But, I will take all the roundabout routes,

walk along the strange alleys,

enquire about you to everyone I meet along the way,

yearn to be around you and listen to you,

and yet don’t wish to reach you.

I was in an uneasy slumber, floating around,

and woke up searching for the bit of amber -

that had slipped down from the abandoned past.

Then, you came

glowing, bringing with you the fire that I thought had died down.

It burnt my foot, but I stepped on it  and climbed down.

Now, the light has a different tint-

It disturbs me, inspires me,

destabilizes my thoughts and

makes me feel tender and comfortable.

When you walk away

your presence pervades everything around me.

and helplessly, I continue my journey

along the paths that would take me to you.

To nowhere

When they eluded me for the thousandth time,

I stopped thinking about smiles.

The poor perplexed mind was unwilling to do anything else,

so it started pondering who I am .

A hundered vague answers popped up.

I didn’t know which one to pick up

and thus left the game half-way .

Now what?

I looked up.

The stars tried  in vain  to hide their smiles behind that cosmic darkness-

as they have always been doing.

Oh, I ‘m not offended.

Even this breeze is teasing me with that chilly pat on my face

and the leaves of the shadow tree -

that swayed and swayed for no reasons.

Look, I’m not offended!

The crowded street gave me a broad yellow smile.

I walked past the white grins of the black road

and boarded the bus to some where.

Please don’t ask me to get down.

Let the moving wheels take me wherever they want to

but just keep going…